<h1>贰拾、Over the rainbow</h1>

    ??上???了???车???后???，???荏???南???似???乎???后???劲???上???来???，???醉???得???更???有???些???厉???害???了???，???脸???颊???红???扑???扑???的???，???散???着???热???气???，???不???自???觉???地???靠???在???江???庆???之???的???西???服???上???，???用???凉???凉???的???布???料???给???自???己???降???降???温???。

    ??江???庆???之???随???她???去???，???只???是???不???时???替???她???拂???去???散???落???在???唇???边???的???发???丝???，???沉???声???对???前???面???司???机???说???：???“???走???大???路???，???开???稳???些???。???”

    ??荏???南???醉???了???也???不???安???生???，???两???手???握???住???庆???之???的???手???，???就???这???样???一???根???根???地???掰???着???、???顽???着???，???用???小???小???的???手???摸???索???着???大???哥???分???明???的???指???节???，???捏???着???他???的???虎???口???，???用???指???尖???悄???悄???按???掌???丘???上???的???茧???子???，???自???己???还???不???时???傻???笑???一???下???，???真???是???个???实???打???实???的???傻???囡???囡???。

    ??“???大???哥???的???手???很???大???，???我???的???手???很???小???，???大???哥???的???手???可???以???把???我???的???拳???头???都???全???部???包???不???见???，???对???不???对???？???”???这???样???的???痴???儿???，???实???在???引???人???发???笑???。

    ??但???江???庆???之???没???有???笑???，???他???只???是???依???言???包???住???了???荏???南???握???得???小???小???的???拳???头???，???任???她???蜷???缩???在???自???己???怀???里???，???下???巴???靠???在???她???软???软???的???发???梢???上???，???在???头???顶???留???下???一???个???若???有???似???无???的???吻???。

    ??荏???南???醉???了???，???记???不???得???事???，???所???以???只???这???一???瞬???，???他???可???以???放???纵???自???己???，???轻???轻???触???一???触???她???。

    ??荏???南???的???小???拳???头???被???包???住???了???，???发???出???咯???咯???的???笑???声???，???清???脆???又???软???甜???，???在???大???哥???掌???心???放???肆???动???着???，???却???怎???么???都???没???有???挣???脱???，???大???哥???没???有???放???开???她???，???这???让???她???更???开???心???了???。

    ??夜???并???不???寂???静???，???霓???虹???初???上???，???街???上???还???热???闹???着???。

    ??电???车???哐???哐???当???当???地???从???旁???边???经???过???，???去???上???夜???班???的???护???士???从???车???上???下???来???，???丝???袜???还???被???挑???着???担???子???的???的???小???贩???刮???过???，???两???人???吵???了???起???来???，???黄???包???车???夫???喘???着???粗???气???跑???过???，???车???上???坐???着???要???去???永???安???的???大???东???舞???厅???找???舞???小???姐???的???急???色???鬼???，???对???这???场???争???吵???显???然???漠???不???关???心???，???避???开???前???方???抱???着???孩???子???的???妇???人???，???那???妇???人???随???即???也???转???入???弄???堂???不???见???了???。

    ??人???类???的???悲???欢???从???来???是???不???相???通???的???，???正???如???车???上???的???人???没???有???看???一???眼???，???街???上???的???人???也???不???会???关???心???旁???边???安???静???行???驶???过???的???汽???车???里???，???又???有???什???么???光???景???。

    ??从???窗???外???透???进???来???的???斑???驳???的???霓???虹???照???在???荏???南???软???嘟???嘟???的???脸???上???，???她???皱???了???皱???眼???睛???，???江???庆???之???伸???手???将???车???窗???上???的???帘???子???拉???上???，???按???了???按???她???的???小???脑???袋???，???让???她???继???续???睡???。

    ??可???荏???南???没???有???睡???，???下???巴???支???在???大???哥???的???胸???膛???上???，???抬???头???看???了???看???他???，???然???后???在???昏???暗???中???绽???出???个???笑???，???轻???轻???唱???着???：

    ??“Some  day  I'll  wish  upon  a  star

    And  wake  up  where  the  clouds  are  far  behind  me

    Where  laughter  falls  like  lemon  drops

    Away  above  the  chimney  tops

    That's  where  you'll  find  me???”

    ??她???细???软???的???声???音???仿???佛???含???着???蜜???，???悠???扬???地???悬???在???车???厢???的???半???空???中???。

    ??这???是???英???文???课???上???教???的???，???她???回???家???后???曾???学???着???给???大???哥???唱???过???。

    ??大???哥???会???弹???钢???琴???，???可???自???从???毕???业???去???了???政???府???后???就???很???少???弹???了???，???出???席???各???种???场???合???，???无???论???是???长???辈???打???趣???还???是???小???辈???起???哄???，???从???来???没???有???表???现???过???。

    ??只???有???荏???南???磨???着???他???时???，???才???会???心???甘???情???愿???替???囡???囡???伴???奏???。

    ??只???有???她???。

    ??夜???幕???中???一???辆???普???利???茅???斯???驶???过???，???留???下???一???丝???若???有???似???无???的???歌???声???。

    ??好???容???易???到???家???了???，???江???庆???之???自???己???先???下???了???车???，???然???后???走???到???另???一???头???，???打???开???门???，???将???醉???了???的???荏???南???小???心???抱???了???出???来???，???干???脆???也???不???让???她???自???己???走???了???，???就???这???么???横???抱???着???进???去???。

    ??荏???南???在???酒???意???之???下???已???经???有???些???困???了???，???乖???乖???偎???在???怀???里???，???连???手???都???没???有???伸???出???来???环???住???大???哥???，???而???是???好???好???放???在???自???己???的???小???肚???子???上???，???膝???弯???架???在???坚???实???的???手???臂???上???，???穿???着???小???红???皮???鞋???的???脚???随???着???步???伐???一???晃???一???晃???的???。

    ??江???庆???之???直???接???将???她???抱???上???了???二???楼???房???间???，???放???在???床???沿???，???俯???身???下???来???将???她???的???小???红???鞋???子???褪???了???下???来???放???到???一???边???，???然???后???将???荏???南???放???进???被???子???里???盖???好???。

    ??“???我???让???张???嫂???来???给???你???洗???漱???下???就???睡???。???”???他???起???身???打???算???出???门???。

    ??刚???站???起???来???，???尾???指???又???被???捉???住???了???，???圈???得???紧???紧???的???，???荏???南???侧???躺???在???被???窝???里???，???就???这???么???眨???着???眼???看???他???，???没???有???说???话???，???眼???睛???里???却???藏???着???什???么???。

    ??庆???之???又???坐???了???回???去???，???拂???过???她???的???额???发???，???低???声???哄???着???：???“???怎???么???了???？???”

    ??“???我???不???要???他???们???，???我???要???大???哥???，???你???陪???我???好???不???好???？???”

    ??江???庆???之???沉???默???不???语???，???将???自???己???的???尾???指???抽???了???出???来???，???虽???然???缓???慢???，???但???很???坚???定???。

    ??荏???南???淬???了???点???泪???出???来???，???盈???在???眼???眶???里???，???在???昏???暗???的???房???间???中???向???钻???石???一???样???闪???亮???。

    ??江???庆???之???叹???了???口???气???，???坐???了???回???去???，???擦???过???她???的???眼???角???。

    ??“???别???哭???了???，???等???你???睡???着???我???再???回???去???。???”

    ??这???点???让???步???却???没???有???换???来???荏???南???的???展???颜???，???她???将???脸???埋???进???松???软???的???枕???头???里???，???肩???膀???微???微???抖???动???着???。

    ??江???庆???之???没???有???再???出???言???哄???她???，???只???是???一???下???下???拍???着???她???的???背???，???力???道???轻???柔???，???过???了???一???会???儿???问???道???：???“???喝???点???水???再???睡???。???”

    ??酒???醉???后???就???会???容???易???口???渴???，???她???醉???中???还???流???泪???，???更???需???要???水???分???了???，???江???庆???之???看???荏???南???没???有???拒???绝???，???便???拿???了???她???粉???色???的???水???杯???过???来???，???温???柔???而???强???硬???地???将???她???扳???了???过???来???，???半???靠???在???自???己???怀???里???，???喂???她???喝???水???。

    ??荏???南???太???过???口???渴???，???捧???着???杯???子???就???要???大???口???喝???，???江???庆???之???放???了???手???让???她???自???己???来???，???结???果???喝???得???太???急???呛???了???起???来???，???水???也???洒???了???一???身???。

    ??江???庆???之???连???忙???结???过???杯???子???，???一???下???下???地???给???荏???南???顺???着???背???，???好???容???易???让???她???平???息???下???来???，???鼻???头???都???呛???红???了???，???皱???着???眉???头???满???脸???不???适???，???江???庆???之???看???她???这???样???子???也???舍???不???得???再???责???怪???什???么???。

    ??荏???南???衣???服???湿???了???，???又???是???礼???服???，???早???被???束???得???不???舒???服???了???，???此???时???便???哼???哼???唧???唧???地???想???要???脱???下???来???，???她???醉???中???没???有???章???法???，???礼???裙???退???了???一???半???就???卡???在???腰???间???，???她???挪???动???着???小???屁???股???试???图???把???礼???服???蹭???下???来???，???却???越???蹭???越???乱???。

    ??江???庆???之???看???着???怀???里???的???荏???南???衣???衫???半???露???，???莹???白???的???肌???肤???在???黑???暗???中???都???仿???佛???透???着???点???幽???光???，???仿???佛???初???绽???的???荷???，???还???未???酿???出???亭???亭???的???绯???色???，???只???氤???氲???了???一???点???子???浅???粉???，???明???明???无???风???，???却???兀???自???摆???动???着???，???晃???出???一???片???夺???人???心???神???的???白???。

    ??这???幅???景???色???全???数???映???在???他???的???镜???片???上???，???反???而???掩???去???了???他???眼???镜???后???的???眼???神???。

    ??他???的???侧???影???投???在???墙???壁???上???，???久???久???不???动???，???终???于???，???影???子???抬???起???了???手???。

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    ??《Over  the  Rainbow???》???出???品???于1939???年???，???用???于???《???绿???野???仙???踪???》???。

    ??其???实???原???来???想???用???的???是???《Que  sera,  sera???》???，???出???于???希???区???柯???克???的???《???擒???凶???记???》???（The  man  who  knew  too  much???，1956???年???）???，???但???时???间???上???相???差???更???远???，???所???以???拥???了???相???对???较???近???的???《Over  the  Rainbow???》???，???但???其???实???这???首???歌???也???并???不???完???全???符???合???文???章???时???间???线???，???请???忽???略???这???个bug???。